She’s breaking up with me to figure things out with her husband. She leaves the 27th for three weeks to Mexico. It’s going to be a very long two months… From now until she gets back.
Why do I have a feeling this is permanently the end? I can’t be greedy.. All of her friends and coworkers say we have fireworks when we’re together…
But like I told her, it’s not fair for her to fight with him every night and then I’m the one who has to see her cry. I’m the one who has to fix that shit. I have to hear about how shitty he treats her when I can do so much better, but we can’t act upon that because of that fucking ring on her finger.
Fuck.
If you have someone on the side or you don’t love her, quit stringing her along.. Because she loves you, but she deserves so much better.
I’m in love with her, and she forgets all her feelings for me when she’s busy crying over you to me.
“Dealing with a heart that I didn’t break.”
I really love you so much and I’m so jealous I can’t have you completely. It scares me that if I did have you completely, how confident I would have to be to ignore all the men lusting over you.. It’s not fair how much I love you.
So many things are happening and so quickly…
My laptop fried itself about a month ago, not sure if I should invest in a new one or keep saving to trade my car in.
My mom is moving in tomorrow and then moving alone to Vegas at the end of May.
My girlfriend’s husband passed his test, so unfortunately for me he will be back in the country before the year is over… I still am very nervous about what will happen once he’s here.
She took me out yesterday and spoiled me.. It really hit me hard. I’m always a giver and maybe I always gave too much in my past relationships. She got me these badass gun barrel plugs, shirts, and a shit ton of belts.. It’s ridiculous how amazing she is. And it’s not even about the money at all, she’s just the sweetest person ever and I really don’t want to let her go.. It’s hard to prepare your heart for the end, even when you know it may be coming.
And… I haven’t even made it a year and I already want to quit my job.. Just because I’m young, doesn’t mean you need to treat me like a child.
So with what money I do have… Laptop, car or vacation? If only I had more money so I wouldn’t have to choose.
I want flowers.
I want a date.
I want a shoulder to cry on.
I want someone to say, “It’s going to be okay.”
I want love.
I don’t want to fight.
I don’t want to cry.
I don’t want to continue where we left off.
Three years and I just want peace. I want maturity. I want communication. I want respect. I want acknowledgment. I just want love.
Love as in, let’s not argue over stupid shit. Love as in, I appreciate everything you do. Love as in, I’m not going to coward behind a text, but I’ll actually call to straighten things out. Love as in, I truly want this to work.
Where is the love…?
I don’t know what’s going on with me or what’s happening.
why is she on my mind.
I hate how I can move on and love someone new, but I don’t know if I can truly mean it because I’m stuck on you. It’s been three years. Three fucking years. So why can’t I let you go… why is it so hard to hate you?
You’ve moved on. You’ve moved away. How are you still torturing me?
I do love her, but I can’t get over you. I hate this so much. It’s not fair. Why can’t I let go… or why can’t you let go of me… can anyone explain this to me.
